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LENA DUNHAM INSTAGRAM

Haven’t paid my bills this month, and I’m loading the comments on an Instagram of Lena Dunham’s dog.

How much debt do I…have? Can one have debt?

Lamby is the name of Lena Dunham’s dog.

I am about to be reported to a debt collector for ignoring my federal student loans for over a year.

I have a deferment form filled out (for those loans).  I have my measly pay stub attached to the deferment form.  But I don’t know where I put my stamps, and I just overdrew my checking account again.

“When you’re hungry, you’ll figure it out.”

“Like…physically hungry?  Or hungry for the job?”

There are 120 comments on this photo of Lena Dunham’s dog that was posted 48 minutes ago.

Sometimes, on Instagram, it will a say a photo was posted 60 minutes ago rather than one hour ago.

Algorithms lag behind.

Is it algorithms or coding? Or both?

I closed my credit card, and lowered my APR for the next nine months.  But the $41 that I just paid overdrew my checking account.

No one in their right mind would give me a credit card!  But I keep getting them in the mail.

Lena Dunham just instagrammed another selfie.  Not sure if she’s aware that we all just press like without even looking at the photo.   Or, rather, if she even cares that we all just press like without looking at the photo.

Ugh I just want to delete all of my social media accounts but HOW WILL I BE A RESPECTED ARTIST IF I’M NOT REACHING OUT TO THE GREATER COMMUNITY/WORLD?  Does anyone even see me reaching?  It’s really hard to tell sometimes.

I’m just hugging air.

I spent $30 on beet flavored cocktails this weekend.  I’m on anti depressants, but alcohol is a depressant, so after I drank all those beet cocktails, I started to cry.  I got very sad.  I hadn’t cried in a week though so it felt good.

“Are you interested in dating?”

“No.”

“WHYYYYY”

“Because I’m not interested in anyone.”

“Awwwwohhhh”

I cry in frustration.

I have a lot to offer,

but right now, I’m barely making it.

But I’m alive,

and that feels

good.

COMPREHENSIVE TO DO LIST

FELLOWSHIPS
-girls spec (start/finish)

-portlandia spec (start/finish)

-for the love of vegetables spec shoot (pin up section)

-applications

TOP 20 SOMETHING

-contact more press

-look into more festivals

-finish press kit

-finalize “this is so cute.” for Monday release

-finish organizational binder

-revisit budget

YOUNG, GAY, & DIABETIC

-finalize booklet design

-look into bandcamp details/pay pal details

-upload tracks/listen to final tracks

THE MACHINE

-write up proposal for THE MACHINE 2.0!!!!

-send e-mail to potential collaborators about a meeting in late may to talk ideas, goals, dreams, hopes, WISHES!!!!!!!!!!!!

-set up a revival of public/private/e-mail glasslands gallery/e-mail galapagos, etc.

THE AMERICAN FAMILY
-poster images

-finalize cast

-establish a budget if there is one

-figure out the music/hire a music director/hire a band?

TOO MANY LENAS

-Lena crimes?

-revisit budget

-publicity info

-write up quick script for promo video idea/put together quick budget for promo video idea

-look into dream up! festival more, talk to people who have done it

-is there another festival we can take this shiz to? CAN WE TAKE THIS SHOW TO LA? HOW FUCKING COOL WOULD THAT BE. TO DO A SHOW IN LA. TO BE YOUNG.

LIFE

-send in those forms about the loans so i’m not hounded by a collections agency ay yi yi

-maybe figure out how to make like double the amount of money i’m making right now?

-maybe get a bigger bed?

-maybe get a desk? & a chair?

-maybe go get my bday prezzie massage

-maybe join the gym finally

-maybe go to yoga for real

-maybe make some summer soups